I can't imagine what it must be like. Or how much you might want to be without it.
...I don't know. I go back and forth. A lot of the time I think I'd like to get rid of my shadow--it's not--it's a problem. But then I worry about changing some part of myself that much.
So then I think I ought to write a book... but I'm probably going to do that anyway, whether it winds up failing or not.
Maybe I'd try to patch up my family. Get us all close again.
[ Honestly, Rachel's just assuming too, but all evidence points to rich dudes being epic assholes, so. ]
So. You need something that'll get you a lot of money without getting shot or having your life ruined by the rich and powerful. Some great discovery to sell?
[Ethan smiles softly when she nods with that sympathy in her expression.]
I don't know that I could put to words how much.
[It's said quietly, honestly before he listens.] ...your shadow? It can be the danger of any major change to oneself. What are we without it? Even when it's something we might not like.
What's the book going to be about? [her final answer makes him smile though, because if there is anything he understands it's family, how important it is for family to be close.] Very good answer. That last one.
Well... okay. Maybe not getting rid of my shadow, like, entirely. Maybe just... changing the fact that it's not like everyone else's.
[ She doesn't particularly want to stand out that way. Hasn't ever been comfortable with it. ]
I'd write the book about a case I worked on. When I find the right one, I'll know. But it's gotta be something I reported on from the start, so I know the story better than anyone to write it.
[ She nods. ] I know family's everything but. I don't know. I feel like we all have no idea what to do with each other now that we're all adults.
...Who says it even has to be a real pirate treasure? Start rumors, get people interested, sell fake maps to some remote place. By the time they get back, you're long gone.
[The question is asked softly without any pressure for her to answer if she doesn't want to talk about it.
Ethan frowns quietly. His chest kind of aches. Family is important, but.] I think... life can honestly sneak up on you in a way you're not prepared for. Before you know it, you're so far away from the people you love and grew up with.
[ if only you knew why, what changed him from what he used to be into this. ] Hardly noble, I think. It's what's right. We belong to the universe, we should care for it and one another.
They... can't, no. I can't imagine what that must be like.
[It's said softly before he nods. His jaw locks a bit in understanding. Something twists up in his chest.]
When you become broken, it can be hard to know how you all fit together anymore, how you ever did to start with. Do you.. think the rest of your family wants to?
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